My Feeling 26-09-04 [ ^_^ ]

Date:26-09-04
Time:19:08
[Sunday]

2nd time loging this blogger, seems like i not really use to this bloggy... i so tention for myself.. it's really time for me to stop all my play n relax session. It's really time for me bek to Study life.

Tomolo will b the 1st day of my course start.. and i heard that class will be start on Tuesday means 28-09-2004. hehe.. tht day in chinese calendar will be the Mid Authum Festival... talk about Mid Authum Festival, make me recall bek last year i was celebrate it wif Lifung and went to Explanade see young teenages and small kiddo playing lanteng.. =) but i duno how my this year Mid Authum will be.

I duno why, now my feeling so unstable.. i really scared i cant handle my course. but i have to continue it.. and complete it, so that i wont disappointed Mom, Bro's especially my Elder Bro.. My Beloved Papa.. I wan to prove to my sis in law, tht i'm not useless..

But.. How am i going to do and handle it?? Course will b taking 2 years time 2 complete..
i Must Graduate. and i dun hope i will need to extand my course. i really dun wan to waste my time anymore...

I wan to achieve my Dreams... Success in my courier, Get a Car for mom.. Earn Money... Support Family.. i not really like my current life... If i really can make it in future.. i really hope i can get a BMW. This is my Dreamz since i was small....He used to promised me that, he can make it.. but i think.. i betta trust myself rather than depend on other.


Everything has change since KM leave his parent office... actually i'm unhappy wif this.. cos life really changes and alot of thinsg happend.From what i dun have till i get all and at the end i lost all again. Anyways, no matter how.. i already learn and get a lesson from the past.. I felt that .. i'm very slefish.. i very hate about this.. i duno why i can be like this. I must change this attitude, and also must learn to Calm.. dun get mad and feddup easily... 1 more thing i dislike about myself is.. i felt that i so LAZY! Damm.. if continue this kind of attitude.. how am i going to complete my Degree.. so Hate Myself!!

I should change my lifestyle, attitude be a healthy and well manner person.. so tht i got energy to continue my studies.Now, i felt that what Elder Bro always remind me n tell me was true. I felt so sorry to him, cos always make him worried and be a burden for him.. Sorry " Da Ge".

Tomolo will be the Orientation for the Course, timetable will be given and i so worry...Cause i need to use to the new life n getting to know other ppl.. and i musn't be lazy and must friendly... i really felt tht.. i cant mix will college ppl.. Really duno why. i can have alot of net friends and become buddies but i duno why i cant really have nice coll pal. Since last Diploma Course.. i not really like to join them.. I think i muz change this attitude.. but what Qiqi said was true.. "let fate bahz" no need purposly go n make friends... :) hope she said is true...

Sometimes i really hate myself.. cos of i dun have Courage.. Chai, Pleas lar.. u so big lio.. 22 why need to scared this n that???? Useless la You!!!! Get Out from Your Fear!!! Everything wont success easily.. must have experinece with it..So that it can be success!! You already know the reasons how come u can extanded Sem for the Diploma..!!!!!!!

God...Bless Me Please... Hope that i can success in my study and My Life.. Thanks God.

Hope what i write today will remind me during my next login... i hope my next blog will say tht i very happy wif my course and my study life...

Thing I Must Change and Do
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1. Study Hard
- Put effort for my studies cant be lazy or pamper myslef..

2. Change My Living Lifestyle
- Must Change, or else how am i going to achieve my Dreamz in future.

3. Don't Stay Up Late for Online and Online Gaming..
- This is only Entertainment, should not wasting too much time on dis.. and already been 6 monthly for myself wasting n relaxing playing this. Play It When Necessary!!!

4. Be More Effective!!

5. Save Money!!

6. DONT LAZY!!

7. DONT Always Depend on OtheR!!

8. Be Brave.. Dun kiasi kiasi !!! =.="

9.Put Effort on Studies!!

10. Never Disappointed Elder Bro,Papa, Mom and all the ppl who cares me!!!


After writting all this down.. i feeling better than before i write. Last Day for relaxing.. Time for Pamper myself.. =p

碧钗,
加油吧.... 好好利用两年时间读书.
只是两年而已，努力求上进吧!
过了两年, 距离梦想的路程就会很快到达!
为自己的将来做好打算，就不必看别人的眼色,不必依赖别人!
自己靠自己!! 成为一位有用又成功的人!!

加油......加油.....吧!

; )